I step out and I over think it, I just know I am gonna sink.
In my heart God rings clear, "be still child, Do not fear"
with every breath my head is spinning, is this really a new beginning?
Can I change enough to make it? Or am I going to juggle and fake it.
So many people can do it and still be free, what's so different about me?
I can't remember the horror of why I left it's there inside but deeply kept.
Was it as bad as I first thought, or into all of the hype have I bought?
I am so confused and unsteady... I am terrified that I am not ready.
Then as I sit spiraling down in despair,
in the depths of my pit I found God there.
He said He knew of all I feared,
His everlasting love was now on my heart seared.
He said, "stay close my child, do not run ahead in haste".
This path is narrow and we have no time to waste".
"If you follow close then you will see,
you are never alone it's always you and Me".
"I Am. for the present, future and your past.
Your pain and suffering shall not last"
"Yes, I was there every single day,
you chose to spend living in a purple haze"
I have waited for you and provided all you would accept,
my love for you is forever kept.
You my child, have sewn some seed,
but now is the time to hear and to heed.
I am here forever never to move,
always for comfort, love and to soothe.
I am but a call in distance,
but you have to give up all resistance.
Take rest child and see... all I want is for you to be free.
All of those things that you thought before,
left you hurt, bound up and your mind in an uproar.
Those things you miss,
tied you tight... and soon you gave up the fight.
Now, before you is a narrow path indeed,
lined with the fruit of MY seed.
The path may be narrow but the choices are not few,
for I know the plans that I have for you.
You my child are a very special kind
made with the hands of the most high and divine.
For I chose you long before you were born,
and not for a life where you will just mourn.
I chose you, equipping, refining, leading, and teaching you to be a warrior.
You my child, I created for so much more.
It's time to rise up and take a step out,
take a stand and test my strength out.
I am here and as long as you remain,
your battles will not be fought in vain.
That's the difference between this time and before,
now you have chosen and open the door...
It's no longer just you in this fiery fight, it's you in me and there is no comparing to our might.
The war is won and the end is foretold, but we still must fight for The streets of Gold.
All God's creation shall one day bend a knee, and you my child will be there to see.
