God, my most loving Father, You know where I am, You know if you have all of me and You know why I am in turmoil. I thank You that you have brought me to this place. This place I can feel, I feel joy, pain, love, anger, compassion, grace and mercy. Where here once was barren land you have planted a harvest.
I know, You are always working and refining your children to be more in Your likeness.
Thank you for bring me up, waking me up and showing me that I was mising it, I was missing the goodness of life. God you have crafted all things to speak your name. We can look anywhere and see your work. I pray that as I am working through this storm of life God, that you will use it to your glory and for your work. Father, thank you that no matter how dark the skies get, You are always able to burn away the clouds and shine ever so brightly and out shine any shadows.
Thank you God that You are able to hold all things in Your hands and that I can find rest in Your shelter. I praise you God for you are mighty, Holy and the Master of all creation. You are the Beginning and End to everything under the sun, You are God and worhy of all praise.
Father forgive me as I am blinded and don't see clearly, help me to submit my whloe heart to you for your glory and for your work. Teach me Father to love you the way I need to. You are why I live and breathe, thank you God for your joy that always comes in the morning.
To God be the glory forever, Amen.
May 16, 2006
An OCCUPIED heart
Wow, what a time I have had... ever been so raw with emotion yet too numb to care? I keep telling myself that I am okay and that this too, is a season. I am loved, do love and definitely know from whom all life flows. Yet, here I am again. Stuck or really... better yet, unwilling to do what I know God wants of me.
Gosh, after all I have come through you'd think I would be asking "how high" when I heard my Father in heaven say jump. Sadly, in my reality today... I am unwilling. What does that mean that I hear Him clearly and still, my answer is no? Yes, I can hear you... I am asking for it, I know. I also know what God is able and very willing to do to get me where He wants me.
Pruning me? Well, ,maybe this is a time of stretching, growing and change. I don't know yet but I do know that I can worship, pray and be still yet, I am still unwilling to surrender all of me. Does that make me like Cain? Are my offerings tainted because of my fear, unwillingness, and disobedience? Or is this too a lesson to be learned from?
I don't doubt my father's unchanging love for me or my worth but I am beginning to doubt my heart. Am I or have I ever been able to completely surrender my everything... all my "stuff" fears, hurt, anger and rebellion?
When do we know when it's all gone, that our heart is completely unoccupied by anything else but God's love, grace and mercy?
Gosh, after all I have come through you'd think I would be asking "how high" when I heard my Father in heaven say jump. Sadly, in my reality today... I am unwilling. What does that mean that I hear Him clearly and still, my answer is no? Yes, I can hear you... I am asking for it, I know. I also know what God is able and very willing to do to get me where He wants me.
Pruning me? Well, ,maybe this is a time of stretching, growing and change. I don't know yet but I do know that I can worship, pray and be still yet, I am still unwilling to surrender all of me. Does that make me like Cain? Are my offerings tainted because of my fear, unwillingness, and disobedience? Or is this too a lesson to be learned from?
I don't doubt my father's unchanging love for me or my worth but I am beginning to doubt my heart. Am I or have I ever been able to completely surrender my everything... all my "stuff" fears, hurt, anger and rebellion?
When do we know when it's all gone, that our heart is completely unoccupied by anything else but God's love, grace and mercy?
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