I have been struggling with the thought of forgiveness lately. There are so many depths to this that I find that I can become quite confused and completely consumed if I take my eyes of the focus.
My question was: can you forgive in the present if you do not know the full extent of the past?
I have some things in my past that have "haunted" me. Over time, to no avail, I have no concrete knowledge of the exact happenings but I do have the overwhelming emotions that linger. So thus, my question.
I have an answer and it covers ALL FORGIVENESS, no matter how catastrophic or how minute. The answer is found in: 1 Corinthians chapter 4 verses 2-5
2 Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful.
3 I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself.
4 My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me. 5 Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God.
I may not have a clear vision of all I need to forgive but I most definitely have a concrete answer as to if I can or if I am supposed to... search these verses, there is more than one sole answer - there is a virtual "how to" in it also.
So, forgiveness does require much, in these words I find much for me to do in obedience and in faith to what God says is my responsibility is in the process of forgiveness and judgement..
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April 25, 2007
required faith
well, I have been thinking a lot about forgiveness and how God has taught me about it so far. Lately I have come to see that there are different seasons to forgiveness. Maybe, different levels that we are ready or willing to forgive at one given time. Not that WE pick and choose but, our issues or situations that God brings to us.
Thankfully God is so full of love and grace He steadily stretches us and molds us instead of laying it on us all at once, although sometimes it might feel as though we are carrying the weight of the world on our shoulders.
Luckily, God has brought me along like a preschooler, very deliberate, repetitious and holding my hand in much of my required healing and forgiveness. He just knows each of his children so well and leads exactly the way we need.
The thought of required faith came from my own self-evaluation. We all go through seasons and that's OK but lately, I have just checked out. I saw it coming, knew I had a choice but still I went into a hibernation of sorts. I don't see it as all good or all bad because I have had some of both results. However, my point is this, before, during, now and forever will be: I knew that God was saying "be faithful to me." "Believe in me", "trust in me", "know that I will prevail in you" are the only things I could hear. He held my hand as I drew back: scared, full of questions, some doubt and unable to sort any of it out myself.
Now, as I began to come out of it a little, I see that he was asking me to be patient and my saving grace... required faith that no matter where I went, He would come for me.
I found that God really does pursue his beloved, relentlessly and gently.
Thankfully God is so full of love and grace He steadily stretches us and molds us instead of laying it on us all at once, although sometimes it might feel as though we are carrying the weight of the world on our shoulders.
Luckily, God has brought me along like a preschooler, very deliberate, repetitious and holding my hand in much of my required healing and forgiveness. He just knows each of his children so well and leads exactly the way we need.
The thought of required faith came from my own self-evaluation. We all go through seasons and that's OK but lately, I have just checked out. I saw it coming, knew I had a choice but still I went into a hibernation of sorts. I don't see it as all good or all bad because I have had some of both results. However, my point is this, before, during, now and forever will be: I knew that God was saying "be faithful to me." "Believe in me", "trust in me", "know that I will prevail in you" are the only things I could hear. He held my hand as I drew back: scared, full of questions, some doubt and unable to sort any of it out myself.
Now, as I began to come out of it a little, I see that he was asking me to be patient and my saving grace... required faith that no matter where I went, He would come for me.
I found that God really does pursue his beloved, relentlessly and gently.
January 13, 2007
Can You Blend It?
I hear that there is a show called "Can You Blend It?" It's all about things that can blend or not. So, at the beginning of the show the host comes out with something, for example, an ipod. Then he asks, "can you blend it?" and you decide if it will blend.
This conversation made me think about the things in my spiritual life and what can blend and what doesn't. Now, bear with me for a second while I STRETCH to reach my point. Using God as my blender, what in my life doesn't blend? What does blend and where is the line where blend-able becomes blender-breaking? What I mean is this... God is supposed to be our center and our guide, right? Using God as our blender what kind of things do we just throw in there without a thought to if it's blender-friendly or not? Ok, let's use the ipod, instead of literally blending it, what about what's on it? How does the music we put onto our Mp3s blend with our center and Guide, God? We go to Church which blends but what about Monday? Does our Monday blend in with our Sunday? What about friends, do our relationships blend in with our ultimate Blender? How many times have we thrown something into the blender that stops the blending - creating a total user error. There is nothing wrong with the blender itself...it's the one using it.
As I am exploring, I find that God is using all kinds of people, things and experiences to call me to Him, even a show about a blender. (PS, yes the ipod did blend)
This conversation made me think about the things in my spiritual life and what can blend and what doesn't. Now, bear with me for a second while I STRETCH to reach my point. Using God as my blender, what in my life doesn't blend? What does blend and where is the line where blend-able becomes blender-breaking? What I mean is this... God is supposed to be our center and our guide, right? Using God as our blender what kind of things do we just throw in there without a thought to if it's blender-friendly or not? Ok, let's use the ipod, instead of literally blending it, what about what's on it? How does the music we put onto our Mp3s blend with our center and Guide, God? We go to Church which blends but what about Monday? Does our Monday blend in with our Sunday? What about friends, do our relationships blend in with our ultimate Blender? How many times have we thrown something into the blender that stops the blending - creating a total user error. There is nothing wrong with the blender itself...it's the one using it.
As I am exploring, I find that God is using all kinds of people, things and experiences to call me to Him, even a show about a blender. (PS, yes the ipod did blend)
January 07, 2007
Business - truth or distraction
Do you find yourself so busy at times that you get to the end of the day and can't remember what all you did? Do you avoid quiet? Do you get up and go, go ,go then pass out when you get to bed? These are just some of the questions I heard today in a sermon about "keeping the Sabbath" or "making room for God". The whole thing was good but what really got me was when he addressed the other group of people who will find it hard to keep the Sabbath (the first - the workaholics). I fall into the second group I believe. We are the ones that go, go, go to avoid hearing the still small voice that aches from past issues still left unresolved. So now what? I choose to go into a period of self-examination and definition. I figure it will be a time to evaluate all that I am doing, why I am doing it and is it God led or something I am just taking on to avoid time alone with God?
Avoiding time alone with God? Saying that just saddens my soul because I know what all I have been through, how God brought me through it, how He protected me and then used it to strengthen me and yet...it still stands as truth. I am realizing that I have significant fundamental discrepancies in my belief system and that is something that gets my attention. I struggle with my God-given ministries because I am so incongruent on the inside, it's like a disease and I don't want to spread it. I used disease meaning, like a disease inconsistencies become acceptable like the beginning symptoms of a disease (easy to ignore). Then a time of knowing something is not quite right but still deadened by a bit of denial, then comes the on set of the illness - it infects every aspect and is no longer able to be overlooked. So there it is... the good, the bad and the pretty ugly but it just so happens to be a place I am not a description of who I am. Who I am is not affected or effected by my situation, my situation will be changed by who I am.
See you are really just a place for me to work things out, I do it much better this way than in my head. so as you read this, don't mistake my life for anything but just another child of God trying to live a little better. I am so thankful that I have a God that figured me out a long time ago and still adores me - even in my ignorance. So, I begin to evaluate....
Avoiding time alone with God? Saying that just saddens my soul because I know what all I have been through, how God brought me through it, how He protected me and then used it to strengthen me and yet...it still stands as truth. I am realizing that I have significant fundamental discrepancies in my belief system and that is something that gets my attention. I struggle with my God-given ministries because I am so incongruent on the inside, it's like a disease and I don't want to spread it. I used disease meaning, like a disease inconsistencies become acceptable like the beginning symptoms of a disease (easy to ignore). Then a time of knowing something is not quite right but still deadened by a bit of denial, then comes the on set of the illness - it infects every aspect and is no longer able to be overlooked. So there it is... the good, the bad and the pretty ugly but it just so happens to be a place I am not a description of who I am. Who I am is not affected or effected by my situation, my situation will be changed by who I am.
See you are really just a place for me to work things out, I do it much better this way than in my head. so as you read this, don't mistake my life for anything but just another child of God trying to live a little better. I am so thankful that I have a God that figured me out a long time ago and still adores me - even in my ignorance. So, I begin to evaluate....
December 12, 2006
so simple yet so hard to hold on to...
It seems so simple to say, if we keep our eyes on Jesus, no matter what, all will be as it should. Tides will turn, storms will come, disaster will befall us but God's plan will prevail as long as we keep in mind who is in control and who isn't.
This is truth, however it being common sense makes the deed no easier. I can't count how many times I have started out with my heart and my eyes set on God and ended up in a place He would not led me. DISTRACTION! That's my weakness, what's everyone else doing? Maybe, I should be doing that instead. Oh, what little discipline and focus I have.
My daughter had a friend over last night and they are coming off a huge fight which neither one can remember the start of. Anyway, we were talking about the mean things they said and did to each other, even though they both knew that eventually, they would make up. They both, in their own words, said that they fought dirty because that's how it's done in middle school.
OUCH, be honest how many situations can you see that the exact same reaction to our surroundings turned a God-led situation into something else? How many times have you gone with the majority because you were fearful of standing alone? That is rarely done, we just don't stand up alone against the majority, usually we will disagree in silence or turn bitter out of misplaced anger.
What about stepping out into unknown territory? How many times have you taken only God with you into a strange environment where you don't know anyone or you feel uncomfortable in? We usually will call up a friend and take them along for support.
I know allot about the cons of this thought because I live in "this world" much more than I live in the world that God calls me to. My mind and heart will both be congruent and set out on the path to God and my mind always (given the chance) takes a detour. Maybe I am so dis tractable because somewhere deep down I think I can do it better? Better than God, I hope not! Maybe, I want to follow but take my own route to get there? This is almost humorous Because I have had such a good track record and I make such good decisions? geez, the choices are getting uglier here. Maybe, it's all about trust? Do I trust God?
Do I know beyond a shadow of doubt that I am His focus? Have I delt with all of the where was He whens... and if He loved me then how could He let that happen? Or the why me's... I don't know the answer but... this will be my meditation for now..I am going to ask God to show me where my weaknesses are that I keep choosing to take a step back when He is calling me forward.
This is truth, however it being common sense makes the deed no easier. I can't count how many times I have started out with my heart and my eyes set on God and ended up in a place He would not led me. DISTRACTION! That's my weakness, what's everyone else doing? Maybe, I should be doing that instead. Oh, what little discipline and focus I have.
My daughter had a friend over last night and they are coming off a huge fight which neither one can remember the start of. Anyway, we were talking about the mean things they said and did to each other, even though they both knew that eventually, they would make up. They both, in their own words, said that they fought dirty because that's how it's done in middle school.
OUCH, be honest how many situations can you see that the exact same reaction to our surroundings turned a God-led situation into something else? How many times have you gone with the majority because you were fearful of standing alone? That is rarely done, we just don't stand up alone against the majority, usually we will disagree in silence or turn bitter out of misplaced anger.
What about stepping out into unknown territory? How many times have you taken only God with you into a strange environment where you don't know anyone or you feel uncomfortable in? We usually will call up a friend and take them along for support.
I know allot about the cons of this thought because I live in "this world" much more than I live in the world that God calls me to. My mind and heart will both be congruent and set out on the path to God and my mind always (given the chance) takes a detour. Maybe I am so dis tractable because somewhere deep down I think I can do it better? Better than God, I hope not! Maybe, I want to follow but take my own route to get there? This is almost humorous Because I have had such a good track record and I make such good decisions? geez, the choices are getting uglier here. Maybe, it's all about trust? Do I trust God?
Do I know beyond a shadow of doubt that I am His focus? Have I delt with all of the where was He whens... and if He loved me then how could He let that happen? Or the why me's... I don't know the answer but... this will be my meditation for now..I am going to ask God to show me where my weaknesses are that I keep choosing to take a step back when He is calling me forward.
December 10, 2006
"not ever again"....
Yesterday a precious friend said this to me, "why would I start a new friendship when I got burned the last time", He said that he was happy with the friends he had and didn't want to take another chance of crashing and burning like the last time.
This translated to my heart said, I don't want to get hurt that bad again. I thought to myself about a time I said those exact words. Instead of friendship, I said I would never share my testimony ever again because I shared it with someone who was not safe and it hurt me to my core, I thought I would never recover. I could have used that pain to cut myself off and I think I actually could have kept that self-declaration and never shared my story with anyone ever again.
However, God has a very different idea about sharing ourselves with others. Whether it be as friends or sharing our journey in Christ... He calls us to share for Him not for us. He never says we won't get hurt, in fact, he says, multiple times, to guard your heart but that means against evil not to shut down your ability to further the kingdom of God out of fear or hurt.
We are called to sacrifice our wants and needs to the will of God and that includes our rights. If we make the choice to submit ourselves to God (wholly and completely), that means we have no right to choose who we share God's work in us with or who God brings to us a friends. We listen, hear God's call and just do out of obedience. We guard our hearts as not to be led astray but we trust God that He can protect us, heal our hurts and strengthen our weaknesses.
We have to look forward to what God is bringing to us and leave the past behind us. When a situation brings up past hurts or crippling pain then we have to face forward and see what God is doing in us and through us instead of getting caught in the trap of past pit dwelling. It's all about what we choose to focus on my friends. This is the only way we can go on when satan uses our past to wound us in the holy battle God calls us to fight in. Do not fail to dress in the full amour of God, our enemy knows our weakness and if given the chance... He will deeply wound us. The Good news... we have to fight the battles but the WAR IS WON!
This translated to my heart said, I don't want to get hurt that bad again. I thought to myself about a time I said those exact words. Instead of friendship, I said I would never share my testimony ever again because I shared it with someone who was not safe and it hurt me to my core, I thought I would never recover. I could have used that pain to cut myself off and I think I actually could have kept that self-declaration and never shared my story with anyone ever again.
However, God has a very different idea about sharing ourselves with others. Whether it be as friends or sharing our journey in Christ... He calls us to share for Him not for us. He never says we won't get hurt, in fact, he says, multiple times, to guard your heart but that means against evil not to shut down your ability to further the kingdom of God out of fear or hurt.
We are called to sacrifice our wants and needs to the will of God and that includes our rights. If we make the choice to submit ourselves to God (wholly and completely), that means we have no right to choose who we share God's work in us with or who God brings to us a friends. We listen, hear God's call and just do out of obedience. We guard our hearts as not to be led astray but we trust God that He can protect us, heal our hurts and strengthen our weaknesses.
We have to look forward to what God is bringing to us and leave the past behind us. When a situation brings up past hurts or crippling pain then we have to face forward and see what God is doing in us and through us instead of getting caught in the trap of past pit dwelling. It's all about what we choose to focus on my friends. This is the only way we can go on when satan uses our past to wound us in the holy battle God calls us to fight in. Do not fail to dress in the full amour of God, our enemy knows our weakness and if given the chance... He will deeply wound us. The Good news... we have to fight the battles but the WAR IS WON!
November 12, 2006
A different point of view...
You probably can't tell but these two boys on the far end... not so excited about the whole dead deer thing. I guess the whole man kills for food thing isn't a hit with them. Well, it's an experience anyway. Eli has been around it for always so it doesn't get to him. However, last year we had quite a situation with Cassie. She wanted to go with Dad to the processing plant(deer processing that is) and well, let's just say she is very much a vegitarian (as much as you can be with McDonalds and stuff : )
Anyway, one mans treasure can be another mans indifference.
Love is everything without an action
living each day choosing to be uncomfortable... It sounds like self-hate huh? Well, today in Church we talked about living outside our comfort zone. whether, it's getting out of the country and into the inner-city, going out instead of staying in, giving it a try rather than wondering what if, speaking out rather than choking down... what ever your comfort is, try stepping out. Say hi to a stranger even when it's hard, strike up a conversation in the grocery store line without knowing what you have in common, ask for help instead of struggling in silence... all of these things are getting out of the norm. It's really no stretch, it's those things that tug on your heart... "just get up out of your chair", "just do it"," just say it"," just hug her"... it's God led intervention into another life and, at times, it's hard and uncomfortable.
What if we saw everyone as God created them... equal. What if when you are sitting at the red light and see a homeless person you really saw a brother or sister in need not the dirty, suspicious-looking shell we choose to see through. Or what if we didn't prejudge a person by the size of their bankbook. What if when we are hurting we just said it instead of acting like we are all OK and hunky-dorey? What if we said those things that may hurt but people need to hear... what if?
There are so many examples in the bible of Jesus doing, saying and living outside the norm and people flocked to Him because He was true. What you saw and what you heard is what you saw lived out without compromise. He gave and gave unconditionally to those God brought to him and then ultimately; he gave his everything for those He knew did not understand but one day would. He gave so that we would have a future.
I don't pretend to think we can live as Jesus did but I know without doubt He is calling us to choose life outside the box. Seeing into one another and caring enough to stop and help when we are called to, give until we can't, and love without limits no matter what. Now, do not misunderstand me, loving without limits is loving and supporting, sometimes... that means having to step back and love from afar, setting boundaries, saying no, and interceding on their behalf from a distance. Love is everything without an action, it's nothing you can just do, it's something you have and only God births. Everything else springs forth from love.
What if we saw everyone as God created them... equal. What if when you are sitting at the red light and see a homeless person you really saw a brother or sister in need not the dirty, suspicious-looking shell we choose to see through. Or what if we didn't prejudge a person by the size of their bankbook. What if when we are hurting we just said it instead of acting like we are all OK and hunky-dorey? What if we said those things that may hurt but people need to hear... what if?
There are so many examples in the bible of Jesus doing, saying and living outside the norm and people flocked to Him because He was true. What you saw and what you heard is what you saw lived out without compromise. He gave and gave unconditionally to those God brought to him and then ultimately; he gave his everything for those He knew did not understand but one day would. He gave so that we would have a future.
I don't pretend to think we can live as Jesus did but I know without doubt He is calling us to choose life outside the box. Seeing into one another and caring enough to stop and help when we are called to, give until we can't, and love without limits no matter what. Now, do not misunderstand me, loving without limits is loving and supporting, sometimes... that means having to step back and love from afar, setting boundaries, saying no, and interceding on their behalf from a distance. Love is everything without an action, it's nothing you can just do, it's something you have and only God births. Everything else springs forth from love.
November 10, 2006
Sound of Strength
There's a song by Casting Crowns called the "Voice of Truth" and it talks about getting out of the boat your in and walking on water. To me, this hit home because I get stifled in the thought that I am stuck or have hit a dead end. I am Probably a lot like the disciples in the boat, they thought there was no way out but, Jesus showed by example that, there is always a way out.
Peter is the only one that got out of the boat and he's the only one who personally experienced the miracle of walking on water. It's not something everyone wants to do... stepping out into an uncomfortable situation, everyone wants the miracle but without the sacrifice of self it takes to get it. Not that we can do anything to make a miracle but it takes faith. We tend to stay close to home, where we are comfortable with the familiar surroundings and happenings. We trust what is proven to be trustworthy and rarely take a chance without a safety net.
What is that? Why can't we trust Jesus and live outside of our comfort zone? Well, for me, it's fear and disobedience. A fear that I will be hurt and the disobedience is my constant ability to focus on anything and everything to keep busy, especially when I am feeling overwhelmed emotionally.
What if I, like Peter stayed in God's will and kept my focus on God more than staying busy? What f I stepped out of my little comfy boat that I keep just barely afloat and planned my day solely around what God desires? Really, that's what Peter, David, Daniel, Job and Mary (to name just a few) did, they stepped away from the norm and lived in "God's zone". Maybe it wasn't every minute of every day but each life tells a story of taking a step out and finding a victory like none they would have never dreamt.
The next (and most touching part to me) part of the song is "I stand and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me". I completely and whole-ly believe that when we step outside the box we have put God in, that Jesus celebrates over us... that's what He died for, our life as a child of God and to have the choice to live that way.
Why with all of this, do we still live like we are powerless and defeated? HMmm....
Peter is the only one that got out of the boat and he's the only one who personally experienced the miracle of walking on water. It's not something everyone wants to do... stepping out into an uncomfortable situation, everyone wants the miracle but without the sacrifice of self it takes to get it. Not that we can do anything to make a miracle but it takes faith. We tend to stay close to home, where we are comfortable with the familiar surroundings and happenings. We trust what is proven to be trustworthy and rarely take a chance without a safety net.
What is that? Why can't we trust Jesus and live outside of our comfort zone? Well, for me, it's fear and disobedience. A fear that I will be hurt and the disobedience is my constant ability to focus on anything and everything to keep busy, especially when I am feeling overwhelmed emotionally.
What if I, like Peter stayed in God's will and kept my focus on God more than staying busy? What f I stepped out of my little comfy boat that I keep just barely afloat and planned my day solely around what God desires? Really, that's what Peter, David, Daniel, Job and Mary (to name just a few) did, they stepped away from the norm and lived in "God's zone". Maybe it wasn't every minute of every day but each life tells a story of taking a step out and finding a victory like none they would have never dreamt.
The next (and most touching part to me) part of the song is "I stand and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me". I completely and whole-ly believe that when we step outside the box we have put God in, that Jesus celebrates over us... that's what He died for, our life as a child of God and to have the choice to live that way.
Why with all of this, do we still live like we are powerless and defeated? HMmm....
November 09, 2006
confessions of a blank mind...
I feel like I need to say this although I assume I have been transparent with my many struggles. Being a Jesus-devoted christian is not saying that I have it all figured out or that I have any answers. EVERYTHING on this blog is pure interpretation by me. I don't pretend to be up on anybody, in fact, I am finding that when I think I may be getting it all figured out... there's more to do.
I just love to know that the pressure is off... when I get tired of doing it on my own, overwhelmed from going on ahead or just in a fit of rebellion... I have a God waiting for me to surrender to Him. I know that my life is what it is because of Him and I am because He chose to let me.
I guess a blog is just my way of working it all out, think it through and process the mysteries of life. I am glad to take you along just come at the risk of this knowledge.... I have no answers, get them from God. = )
I just love to know that the pressure is off... when I get tired of doing it on my own, overwhelmed from going on ahead or just in a fit of rebellion... I have a God waiting for me to surrender to Him. I know that my life is what it is because of Him and I am because He chose to let me.
I guess a blog is just my way of working it all out, think it through and process the mysteries of life. I am glad to take you along just come at the risk of this knowledge.... I have no answers, get them from God. = )
Waiting...
I just gave a sister-friend some advice, I said "don't rush it and don't get overwhelmed but wait on God to deal and sort things out in you and through you". In hind-sight I see that my advice, as true as it is, can be harder to accomplish than just spouting off a few words. I think wait is one of the top most used words in the Bible. Noah waited for the waters to recede, The Israelites waited, everybody had to wait at some point and if they did not... trouble befell them.
So, how do you WAIT? What if all of life starts closing in, your heart just can't take another beating and you are just barely hanging on? What then, how long can you hold onto the rope? Well, the answer is... not long enough.
Waiting means giving God the burden and trusting Him to unload it as He sees fit. I know, for those of us that don't really know how to trust... that's a lesson that has to come first. We have to be able to trust to be able to survive. We are not made to handle all that life dishes out but, Jesus was and through Him, we can bear anything. We can not face the sins of this world and have hope. God loved us and made a way, He built a bridge between us that overcame the sin and the bridge was Jesus. Jesus carried the weight for all of our sin (past, present and future) to the cross. So if He can give His all for us we can safely trust in Him for what we can not see.
Waiting... to me, means having to trust God and know that he has a better view.
So, how do you WAIT? What if all of life starts closing in, your heart just can't take another beating and you are just barely hanging on? What then, how long can you hold onto the rope? Well, the answer is... not long enough.
Waiting means giving God the burden and trusting Him to unload it as He sees fit. I know, for those of us that don't really know how to trust... that's a lesson that has to come first. We have to be able to trust to be able to survive. We are not made to handle all that life dishes out but, Jesus was and through Him, we can bear anything. We can not face the sins of this world and have hope. God loved us and made a way, He built a bridge between us that overcame the sin and the bridge was Jesus. Jesus carried the weight for all of our sin (past, present and future) to the cross. So if He can give His all for us we can safely trust in Him for what we can not see.
Waiting... to me, means having to trust God and know that he has a better view.
November 03, 2006
Fog
Sitting here thinking about my day ahead I find that there is so much fog in my view. Fog, the fuzzy distractions that don't really accomplish anything but steal away time and energy. Sometimes we add the fog to avoid those chores that we have to do but would rather ignore hoping that they will just disappear or a miracle of God will come and it will be done. That's how I am with home chores... could I procrastinate any more? You don't know the answer but it a resounding NO! Some fog rolls in virtually undetected to subtly steal your focus or attention. Some fog co es in so dense you can't see anything but the distractions.
What is this Fog and where does is come from? Well, I believe that our enemy is waiting to roll in at times when we are weak, confused, DISTRACTED, hurt, sad, depressed, angry and when we are totally focused, on the right path and just stop and let our guard down for a millisecond. Face it, our enemy thrives on the element of surprise and when at war... you can never let your guard down.
Eph. 5:15-17
Be very careful, then, how you live- not as unwise but as wise, 16 making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. 17 Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is.
Eph. 6:10-20
The Armour of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled round your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. 19 Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
What is this Fog and where does is come from? Well, I believe that our enemy is waiting to roll in at times when we are weak, confused, DISTRACTED, hurt, sad, depressed, angry and when we are totally focused, on the right path and just stop and let our guard down for a millisecond. Face it, our enemy thrives on the element of surprise and when at war... you can never let your guard down.
Eph. 5:15-17
Be very careful, then, how you live- not as unwise but as wise, 16 making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. 17 Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is.
Eph. 6:10-20
The Armour of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled round your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. 19 Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
October 29, 2006
a different place to start
When we think we have lost the fight and we have admitted defeat... Mercy says no.
A broken man once said that, "satan asked God if he could sift me, God granted him permission and I failed Him". You know what, in that statement stands grace defined. When we've fought all the fight we can, Mercy says no; when we have failed Him, Mercy says no; when we don't deserve it, Mercy says no; even when we didn't know to ask, Mercy says no. He will never let our sin take control of our soul.
Can you grasp that? Just think about the magnitude of it all. I have been where I have and done things that deserved death but, Mercy said no. God stepped in on my behalf a long time ago when He loved me enough to let Jesus be a sacrifice in my place. I can't even get a grip on words enough to describe the miricle that is me and the miricle in you.
God doesn't pick and choose, He gives us grace because He loves us. We have to pick and choose Him constantly. With every single decision it is a battle of life and death. Sounds like overkill doesn't it? It's not my friend, our battle is black and white, life and death, and each decision we make either takes us closer to Jesus or farther away.
Will we take steps oppsite Jesus? Yes, but that is where Mercy says no, He will never let sin steal you heart away.
So if you feel like sin is who you are or you think you will never be okay... whatever binds your heart or forms that ball in your throat that is growing too large to swallow, whatever habit overtakes you... mercy says no. All you have to do is ask, listen, focus and react out of God's love for you.
Is this a recipe for instant sucess? No. It is just a different place to start.
A broken man once said that, "satan asked God if he could sift me, God granted him permission and I failed Him". You know what, in that statement stands grace defined. When we've fought all the fight we can, Mercy says no; when we have failed Him, Mercy says no; when we don't deserve it, Mercy says no; even when we didn't know to ask, Mercy says no. He will never let our sin take control of our soul.
Can you grasp that? Just think about the magnitude of it all. I have been where I have and done things that deserved death but, Mercy said no. God stepped in on my behalf a long time ago when He loved me enough to let Jesus be a sacrifice in my place. I can't even get a grip on words enough to describe the miricle that is me and the miricle in you.
God doesn't pick and choose, He gives us grace because He loves us. We have to pick and choose Him constantly. With every single decision it is a battle of life and death. Sounds like overkill doesn't it? It's not my friend, our battle is black and white, life and death, and each decision we make either takes us closer to Jesus or farther away.
Will we take steps oppsite Jesus? Yes, but that is where Mercy says no, He will never let sin steal you heart away.
So if you feel like sin is who you are or you think you will never be okay... whatever binds your heart or forms that ball in your throat that is growing too large to swallow, whatever habit overtakes you... mercy says no. All you have to do is ask, listen, focus and react out of God's love for you.
Is this a recipe for instant sucess? No. It is just a different place to start.
October 24, 2006
it's a heart thing
I have many different struggles and I can place a name, blame or excuse on any one of them but the truth of the matter is, it's a heart thing.
Somewhere down the line our hearts heard something dreadfully wrong and it hurt us to the core. We took that hurtful word, situation, judgement, whatever; as truth and that lie was tatooed on our heart. Until that lie is uncovered, God allowed in to heal it and the lie replaced with the truth of God then, we will still have struggles in that area.
It sounds simple but to take something that has been sewn into the very fiber that you believe yourself to be and just change it... no, it's not that easy. You have to first admit that there is something very wrong, ask God to help you bring it into His light (identify it), allow Him to validate you (feel it) and let Him tatoo a new truth in it's place (heal).
Again, it sounds alot easier than it is. I am trying to do this in an area of my life and I find that pride, pain and rebellion are very much my enemy. I know that I have to be 100% responsibile for all of my actions and that... is a large pill to swallow (so to speak). I try to think that I might just want to wallow in the blame game because at least there, I am powerless (so to speak). It's a battle my friends. Not just for me but anyone who lives and breathes, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day it is an ongoing war - just remember, Jesus is ALWAYS an option!
Somewhere down the line our hearts heard something dreadfully wrong and it hurt us to the core. We took that hurtful word, situation, judgement, whatever; as truth and that lie was tatooed on our heart. Until that lie is uncovered, God allowed in to heal it and the lie replaced with the truth of God then, we will still have struggles in that area.
It sounds simple but to take something that has been sewn into the very fiber that you believe yourself to be and just change it... no, it's not that easy. You have to first admit that there is something very wrong, ask God to help you bring it into His light (identify it), allow Him to validate you (feel it) and let Him tatoo a new truth in it's place (heal).
Again, it sounds alot easier than it is. I am trying to do this in an area of my life and I find that pride, pain and rebellion are very much my enemy. I know that I have to be 100% responsibile for all of my actions and that... is a large pill to swallow (so to speak). I try to think that I might just want to wallow in the blame game because at least there, I am powerless (so to speak). It's a battle my friends. Not just for me but anyone who lives and breathes, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day it is an ongoing war - just remember, Jesus is ALWAYS an option!
Do Not Fret
Psalm 37
- Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong; 2 for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away. 3 Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. 4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. 5 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: 6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. 7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret- it leads only to evil. 9 For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.
so, if someone sets out to hurt you, destroy you, or slander you.... "Do not fret". When the winds of the storm begin to blow what do we do? "Do not fret". When everything seems to come up against us and we can are stonewalled, what do we do? "Do not fret".
Whatever you challenge, God is very clear. Anything but commiting your way to the Lord is wrong and will "only lead to evil". Does this verse say be perfect and God will "make your righteousness shine like the dawn"? Nope, we know that God knows our innermost being so, if He knows what goes on inside that mind of ours then He must be perfectly aware of our shortcommings (to say the least). He knows who you are, who I am and tells us to wait when wrong and evil are brought up against us. He will take care of it. He can punish the deeds much better than we can and if we take on retallatation then what?... "it only leads to evil". It becomes a distraction and builds a wedge between us and God, as much as we are hurt and angered remember this... Hurting people hurt others. Try compassion over anger and prayer over wrath, these are the ways of the Lord.
- Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong; 2 for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away. 3 Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. 4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. 5 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: 6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. 7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret- it leads only to evil. 9 For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.
so, if someone sets out to hurt you, destroy you, or slander you.... "Do not fret". When the winds of the storm begin to blow what do we do? "Do not fret". When everything seems to come up against us and we can are stonewalled, what do we do? "Do not fret".
Whatever you challenge, God is very clear. Anything but commiting your way to the Lord is wrong and will "only lead to evil". Does this verse say be perfect and God will "make your righteousness shine like the dawn"? Nope, we know that God knows our innermost being so, if He knows what goes on inside that mind of ours then He must be perfectly aware of our shortcommings (to say the least). He knows who you are, who I am and tells us to wait when wrong and evil are brought up against us. He will take care of it. He can punish the deeds much better than we can and if we take on retallatation then what?... "it only leads to evil". It becomes a distraction and builds a wedge between us and God, as much as we are hurt and angered remember this... Hurting people hurt others. Try compassion over anger and prayer over wrath, these are the ways of the Lord.
October 22, 2006
a child of the King
In the story of Tamar's tragic life there are many lessons to learn from and incorporate into our own lives but today one stands alone....
As Tamar was shoved out the door of her brothers house, the raw emotions set in and in that moment her grief over took her and she was lost. She tore her robe that distinguished her title and worth and shed everything she knew (the lies set in). She went on to be virtually ignored by her father and never validated by anyone, she was basically banished from the life she once .
I just wonder? were there people outside to hear and see her despair? When she shed her robe, did someone see and have compassion for her? Did people have to step over her torn robe along their way? Did dust settle on the robe from the feet of many that passed by and never gave it a second thought? What about that...
Dear Father in heaven, Thank you that you will never be a passer-by. You will always come to our rescue and you will never do: nothing. You will always care for and protect your children and you will never abandon us ever, no matter what. Thank You.
I ask Father that you teach me, call me and guide me to never cast dust on a torn robe that lies in my path. May I always see past the events of my own life into others. Please use me in whatever way you choose, I am yours and I know who that makes me forever... I am and will always be a child of the King!
As Tamar was shoved out the door of her brothers house, the raw emotions set in and in that moment her grief over took her and she was lost. She tore her robe that distinguished her title and worth and shed everything she knew (the lies set in). She went on to be virtually ignored by her father and never validated by anyone, she was basically banished from the life she once .
I just wonder? were there people outside to hear and see her despair? When she shed her robe, did someone see and have compassion for her? Did people have to step over her torn robe along their way? Did dust settle on the robe from the feet of many that passed by and never gave it a second thought? What about that...
Dear Father in heaven, Thank you that you will never be a passer-by. You will always come to our rescue and you will never do: nothing. You will always care for and protect your children and you will never abandon us ever, no matter what. Thank You.
I ask Father that you teach me, call me and guide me to never cast dust on a torn robe that lies in my path. May I always see past the events of my own life into others. Please use me in whatever way you choose, I am yours and I know who that makes me forever... I am and will always be a child of the King!
October 21, 2006
reconcilling more than a year
looking back over the past year and realizing that again, another year is slipping away. I am forced to deal and work out all of those financial issues that I have let go. Like making sure everything is in check and ready to close out, that it is all in order for future reference, tying up loose ends and reconciling the years profit and losses. I am not a financially minded person but this is what I imagine has to happen in preparation for the next year to make sure it is not all jumbled in with the coming new year.
Well, of course, I just ran with this. If we are so meticulous with our money, why can't we reconcile our year emotionally too? Why don't we deal with, work out, clean up and tie up all the loose ends so we don't just carry them over and over and over year after year? God has great plans for us, each of us individually, and if we are all tied up in the past how can we embrace the future? You have to let go of one thing to take hold of another, if not you split your time, focus and attention. Nothing is going to be as magnificent or as profitable if you don't give it you full attention. Quit splitting and start giving life your very best.
So, how about this year when the year begins to draw to a close... you reconcile more than just your bank book?
Well, of course, I just ran with this. If we are so meticulous with our money, why can't we reconcile our year emotionally too? Why don't we deal with, work out, clean up and tie up all the loose ends so we don't just carry them over and over and over year after year? God has great plans for us, each of us individually, and if we are all tied up in the past how can we embrace the future? You have to let go of one thing to take hold of another, if not you split your time, focus and attention. Nothing is going to be as magnificent or as profitable if you don't give it you full attention. Quit splitting and start giving life your very best.
So, how about this year when the year begins to draw to a close... you reconcile more than just your bank book?
October 19, 2006
Peter walked on water too
Do you know the story? Exhausted and worn down Jesus sent the 12 diciples onto the lake for rest from the multitude. Jesus stayed and told the people to return home and then, after everyone had gone, he fled for solitude up to the moutains to pray alone. When he came down the boat was already out too far and the winds made it nearly impossible for them to return to pick Jesus up. So, Jesus set out on foot to walk across the water to get to the boat.... as you and I can imagine, surely there was complete silence and awe as they watched their friend, mentor and soon tyo be Savoir come closer and closer doing the unthinkable. More than that, they called to Jesus and Jesus invited them to get out of the boat and come to him. No one dared EXCEPT Peter. Petrer kept his eyes and focus on Jesus and he walked on the water. Only when he felt overwhelmed and took his eyes and focus off Jesus did he begin to sink. Even in his doubt, Jesus held out his hand and kept him afloat.
This story is just so amazing to me, not just in the miricle itself but the challenge: Jesus knew that they were able He didn't need proof but He challenged them to believe in what He already knew to be true.
You know what, I could tell you much more about what this story says to my heart but I want to ask you... what is God asking you to believe, what challenge is He asking you to meet?
This story is just so amazing to me, not just in the miricle itself but the challenge: Jesus knew that they were able He didn't need proof but He challenged them to believe in what He already knew to be true.
You know what, I could tell you much more about what this story says to my heart but I want to ask you... what is God asking you to believe, what challenge is He asking you to meet?
October 16, 2006
taking a chance
I guess it all really comes down to the question... am I going to take a chance? Call it what you want but everything comes down to a choice, will I trust? Is God really there for me? Is this job going to be right? The possibilities are endless, the ultimate nitty-gritty is... am I going to take a chance. It is repetitive isn't it? Well, it is a huge question with need for great thought.
In thinking about this I see many times in the past that I have said no, I won't take that chance and come back later to find that the chance was gone and the time had passed. Let's break it down, how do we make a decision? I usually am faced with a situation and respond emotionally, then common sense sets in. I usually take the big ones to God and check with Him and sometimes I get an immediate response and other times... I get silence. I am not really good with silence, that's usually when I get in the most trouble is when I am trying to fill the silence. Anyway, from there I try to make the best INFORMED decision that I can and stick to it. I have learned recently that it helps to plan ahead. I make up my mind as to my goal and then every response from then on is based on if that decision will take me closer to or farther away from my set goal. I find my chances are fewer and I tend to take more of them because it cuts down so much of the unnecessary blah blah that tends to steal my focus (which I have to say is extremely easy).
So, tonight I was just thinking about what and how I tend to function - good, bad and different - (I was told today that I needed to get my ducks in a row and that I could do it even if my row didn't look like the others). Even though it was a light-hearted statement (true as it is) it was a gentle whisper to my soul... "it's Ok, you are different but I made you that way". It used to be my biggest fear that I was different, weird or that I would not fit in but now God has turned that fear into thanks. I am thankful That my Father made me different, that I can see things the way I do and that the gifts and talents He has given me are mine alone. I also find such joy in exploring those things in others, it's a true blessing to uncover or benefit from God's grace in and through His work in other people. Instead of asking myself, I am going to take this chances, as negative, if you can just change your perspective those "chances" can be unexpected presents for you on your journey.
In thinking about this I see many times in the past that I have said no, I won't take that chance and come back later to find that the chance was gone and the time had passed. Let's break it down, how do we make a decision? I usually am faced with a situation and respond emotionally, then common sense sets in. I usually take the big ones to God and check with Him and sometimes I get an immediate response and other times... I get silence. I am not really good with silence, that's usually when I get in the most trouble is when I am trying to fill the silence. Anyway, from there I try to make the best INFORMED decision that I can and stick to it. I have learned recently that it helps to plan ahead. I make up my mind as to my goal and then every response from then on is based on if that decision will take me closer to or farther away from my set goal. I find my chances are fewer and I tend to take more of them because it cuts down so much of the unnecessary blah blah that tends to steal my focus (which I have to say is extremely easy).
So, tonight I was just thinking about what and how I tend to function - good, bad and different - (I was told today that I needed to get my ducks in a row and that I could do it even if my row didn't look like the others). Even though it was a light-hearted statement (true as it is) it was a gentle whisper to my soul... "it's Ok, you are different but I made you that way". It used to be my biggest fear that I was different, weird or that I would not fit in but now God has turned that fear into thanks. I am thankful That my Father made me different, that I can see things the way I do and that the gifts and talents He has given me are mine alone. I also find such joy in exploring those things in others, it's a true blessing to uncover or benefit from God's grace in and through His work in other people. Instead of asking myself, I am going to take this chances, as negative, if you can just change your perspective those "chances" can be unexpected presents for you on your journey.
October 08, 2006
Created for more...
Eph. 2:10 reads:
"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, for which God prepared in advance for us to do".
This verse says that we, each child, God Breathed, and alive, are created to do great things. Have you ever looked around a room full of people wanting to stand up and just say your thoughts only to be almost glued to your seat in fear? What kept you in your seat? I find that way too often, I let that little but, all too often, very loud voice run over my God-given voice. Like writing, how long have I struggled with just doing what I love without the whole worth/deserving thing going on in my head? Please, I am the biggest wimp when it comes to being who I am. I am terrified that it won't be good enough, I won't be accepted or I might be "weird". Just so you know, I am weird. I say random things, speak when I should have kept my mouth shut and I say about everything that comes to mind. However, you know what that makes me? An individual. I am a one of a kind child of God that struggles to find and stay with Him all day in this non-God focused world.
Each of us is made for good works that he has prepared in advance for us.... that means that God has planted a vision in you and in me. He has set a vision for us as individuals, why do we spend out energy constantly searching for our purpose when it's all right here? God created us for His purpose a purpose that He chiseled out and set deep within each of us.
IF we lived as His children, truly seeking Him breath by breath, I am convinced that we would know and fulfill our good works much faster. God says, not only has he planned out our purpose in advance but His plans for us are for hope and a future not for harm.
We wonder why we have so many lost generations wandering about life feeling that we are made for more but convinced that we don't have what it takes to achieve it. There is a very real enemy out there and His agenda is to steal our purpose. We can be robbed blind in confusion, fear, unforgiveness, bitterness, disbelief, pride, hate, and the list can just run on and on...God's word is true my friends and we need to know it, live it and share it. So, next time that little voice creeps in, defy it and stand up for Jesus and be not ashamed of what Good deeds God has planned for you... it's not for them... it's all for God's glory!
"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, for which God prepared in advance for us to do".
This verse says that we, each child, God Breathed, and alive, are created to do great things. Have you ever looked around a room full of people wanting to stand up and just say your thoughts only to be almost glued to your seat in fear? What kept you in your seat? I find that way too often, I let that little but, all too often, very loud voice run over my God-given voice. Like writing, how long have I struggled with just doing what I love without the whole worth/deserving thing going on in my head? Please, I am the biggest wimp when it comes to being who I am. I am terrified that it won't be good enough, I won't be accepted or I might be "weird". Just so you know, I am weird. I say random things, speak when I should have kept my mouth shut and I say about everything that comes to mind. However, you know what that makes me? An individual. I am a one of a kind child of God that struggles to find and stay with Him all day in this non-God focused world.
Each of us is made for good works that he has prepared in advance for us.... that means that God has planted a vision in you and in me. He has set a vision for us as individuals, why do we spend out energy constantly searching for our purpose when it's all right here? God created us for His purpose a purpose that He chiseled out and set deep within each of us.
IF we lived as His children, truly seeking Him breath by breath, I am convinced that we would know and fulfill our good works much faster. God says, not only has he planned out our purpose in advance but His plans for us are for hope and a future not for harm.
We wonder why we have so many lost generations wandering about life feeling that we are made for more but convinced that we don't have what it takes to achieve it. There is a very real enemy out there and His agenda is to steal our purpose. We can be robbed blind in confusion, fear, unforgiveness, bitterness, disbelief, pride, hate, and the list can just run on and on...God's word is true my friends and we need to know it, live it and share it. So, next time that little voice creeps in, defy it and stand up for Jesus and be not ashamed of what Good deeds God has planned for you... it's not for them... it's all for God's glory!
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