I guess it all really comes down to the question... am I going to take a chance? Call it what you want but everything comes down to a choice, will I trust? Is God really there for me? Is this job going to be right? The possibilities are endless, the ultimate nitty-gritty is... am I going to take a chance. It is repetitive isn't it? Well, it is a huge question with need for great thought.
In thinking about this I see many times in the past that I have said no, I won't take that chance and come back later to find that the chance was gone and the time had passed. Let's break it down, how do we make a decision? I usually am faced with a situation and respond emotionally, then common sense sets in. I usually take the big ones to God and check with Him and sometimes I get an immediate response and other times... I get silence. I am not really good with silence, that's usually when I get in the most trouble is when I am trying to fill the silence. Anyway, from there I try to make the best INFORMED decision that I can and stick to it. I have learned recently that it helps to plan ahead. I make up my mind as to my goal and then every response from then on is based on if that decision will take me closer to or farther away from my set goal. I find my chances are fewer and I tend to take more of them because it cuts down so much of the unnecessary blah blah that tends to steal my focus (which I have to say is extremely easy).
So, tonight I was just thinking about what and how I tend to function - good, bad and different - (I was told today that I needed to get my ducks in a row and that I could do it even if my row didn't look like the others). Even though it was a light-hearted statement (true as it is) it was a gentle whisper to my soul... "it's Ok, you are different but I made you that way". It used to be my biggest fear that I was different, weird or that I would not fit in but now God has turned that fear into thanks. I am thankful That my Father made me different, that I can see things the way I do and that the gifts and talents He has given me are mine alone. I also find such joy in exploring those things in others, it's a true blessing to uncover or benefit from God's grace in and through His work in other people. Instead of asking myself, I am going to take this chances, as negative, if you can just change your perspective those "chances" can be unexpected presents for you on your journey.
