I am thinking forward to Sunday and I was not so subtley reminded of how dense i can be and how Father's Day has changed for many that are close by and many more that are far away. This Father's Day could represent loss, with no one physically here to bestow a gift, a card, a kind word , or a hug to, it could be a day of sorrow or a day of regret.
Being as I have my Daddy still on this earth but, have gotten a glimpse of the painful loss...and I do not wish to be in that place that one day we all will endure. This thought came to me as a Father's Day wish for you. What if you look at yourself, at your life and see...see him there. Is he in your eyes, your smile, you laugh? Did he plant the seed for your love for the game? Is he the catalyst for your motivation, is he your hero? Is he the one you get your steadiness, your protective nature, your selfless sacrificing, your endless provision and your ability to unconditionally love those around you from?
So I ask you, would he rather you be sad in his passing or on Father's Day rejoice in the gifts he has given you. He knew he was loved, he knew what he was to you...now be that for those who love you. This Father's Day celebrate the life lived...it was extraordinary!
Being as I have my Daddy still on this earth but, have gotten a glimpse of the painful loss...and I do not wish to be in that place that one day we all will endure. This thought came to me as a Father's Day wish for you. What if you look at yourself, at your life and see...see him there. Is he in your eyes, your smile, you laugh? Did he plant the seed for your love for the game? Is he the catalyst for your motivation, is he your hero? Is he the one you get your steadiness, your protective nature, your selfless sacrificing, your endless provision and your ability to unconditionally love those around you from?
So I ask you, would he rather you be sad in his passing or on Father's Day rejoice in the gifts he has given you. He knew he was loved, he knew what he was to you...now be that for those who love you. This Father's Day celebrate the life lived...it was extraordinary!
I find myself in an odd place on Father's day. First, as a father myself, I feel like I have been a fairly decent father to 3 of my 4 children. I have no relationship with my oldest child for a variety of complicated reasons that I cannot fix. And that hurts.
ReplyDeleteAnd then I think about my own father. No man on earth had more of my respect and love. Much of the man I am I owe to him. But now his body, and more painfully, his mind is failing him causing him to make some bad choices and say some really hurtful things.
Just in an odd place.
Dear Odd Place,
Deleteyou know what, the mind is a very complicated thing and you have to cling to what you know is true. He won your respect, love and adoration when his mind was working as his mind deteriorates, you have to hold tight to who you know he is. I am sorry, I have a has different but similar experience and having to remember who someone was over who they are is a very hard place to be.
As a father yourself, you know...nothing would make you purposefully hurt your child...except if you were not yourself in an illness of the mind. Sorry, it took so long for me to reply...not that you needed one...I guess I needed to write one.