Meditate on the moment that you realized God loves you more than you could ever love him back and accepted it. Many times people confuse being saved with this process and salvation alone is the one moment that changes everything forever. This moment can be later or maybe now… it’s when you began to understand the priceless gift of love, life eternal and accepted it into your heart. Did you know that you can be saved and not accept the wholeness of your salvation? Think about it, have you accepted that God chose you (not everyone, thgis IS about you) you alone, that He loved you, or even that the thought of you apart from Him for all eternity pained Him so much, that He sacrificed His Son Jesus to make a way to be with you? Jesus (God with skin on as Eli says) loved you and was literally torn in flesh for you, accepted each nail for you and in His last breath prayed a blessing for you… can you take that in? Can you accept that you are worthy, you are precious, you are beautiful, you are adored, you are cherished and you are complete in Him. He has a plan for you, has given you gifts to share and made you exactly the way He needs and wants you to be. He cares enough for you to provide all of your needs, give you all the wants He knows you can handle and loves you enough to make sure that you are disciplined, grown and stretched to His glory.
What God isn’t… is everything else.
He alone is pure, holy and worthy of our adoration. He gives freely, loves without condition and provides hope in all situations.
I have struggled with the worldly views of that I have placed on God from my life experiences, my earthly father and hurts in my life. I viewed God as a performance-based God. As long as I was happy and successful on the outside nothing else mattered it was the outside picture I thought God cared about but now to His glory, I know that he cares only about my insides and the condition of my heart.
I urge you to evaluate your views and let God show you if you have expectations, worldly views or a distorted view of God. Let Him reveal Himself in His ways and in His glorious appearing in all situations.
I pray that we all will know Him as He wants us to and that we will long to be with Him more and more each moment. That we will strive to learn His ways and love with His love, receive his peace and bask in His joy. That we all would live complete in His lavish gift of our personal salvation.
October 31, 2005
October 26, 2005
Stepping out
Stepping out of what is comfortable is hard at times because you are going somewhere new. I don't know about you, but new is always hard for me no matter what. I am a creature of habit however, God is teaching me that habits are better left alone because once picked up, they are really hard to break, most of them are bad and a lot of times habits stand in the way of growth.
So maybe you know where God is leading you or maybe you are just following close and waiting. Either place you are can be exciting, new, scary and lonely. Sometimes, it is a virtually painless process and others, it seems, are all pain (growing pain). Sometimes comfortable is different and God provides an adjustment period to help us along and sometimes He calls us to just step out on faith.
It's funny, everyone can have an opinion and we so often forget that nothing matters but our kingdom view and where He is leading us. Our very own steps is all we can take or be responsible for, so those opinions are worthless and should be weightless too. I tend to get caught up in the weight of decisions and usually it's not my weight, it is what others think or what I think they might think... How wasteful of my time is that?
Anyway, stepping out in obedience is one of the most exhilarating moments in life because you are glorifying God by going just because He said so, without a reason or maybe without a place but, going to His glory and not ours... Anything suffered in the process I consider pure joy!
So maybe you know where God is leading you or maybe you are just following close and waiting. Either place you are can be exciting, new, scary and lonely. Sometimes, it is a virtually painless process and others, it seems, are all pain (growing pain). Sometimes comfortable is different and God provides an adjustment period to help us along and sometimes He calls us to just step out on faith.
It's funny, everyone can have an opinion and we so often forget that nothing matters but our kingdom view and where He is leading us. Our very own steps is all we can take or be responsible for, so those opinions are worthless and should be weightless too. I tend to get caught up in the weight of decisions and usually it's not my weight, it is what others think or what I think they might think... How wasteful of my time is that?
Anyway, stepping out in obedience is one of the most exhilarating moments in life because you are glorifying God by going just because He said so, without a reason or maybe without a place but, going to His glory and not ours... Anything suffered in the process I consider pure joy!
October 23, 2005
Blessings from you...
Although my birthday has come and gone God prepared my heart for the blessings that He had for me personally weeks before. As we know, I had a bit of freedom released just before that day, in which, I was so wonderfully taught that obedience comes on all different levels. I had a dear friend who reminded me that age is not a number but a new opportunity and season of growth. The last week before I turned 37, God planned for me to see several areas in which I am abundantly blessed and others that need my attention. He prepared me and made sure that I felt loved and at peace on this birthday. I did, this is the first birthday that was about celebrating God's creation of me and what that means and how far that I have evolved by knowing Him. I was doing a mental inventory of my friends and loved ones, comparing what I am now as a friend, wife, mother, sister and daughter as to what I want to be. It was just so nice to know that I am loved by my loved ones and that it can only get better as we grow.
Now that does not mean its easy, I have some really hard to love folks in my circle and it stretches me thin to love them because, at times, I honestly don't want to. But, my present from God is a gentle reminder that I can not love enough in and of myself, I will always run dry and weary. My love has to come from the eternal fountain of love in me that is Jesus Christ. I am reminded that not so long ago I was a horribly hard child to love, it was my mission. Then I began to understand that maybe as with grace, you can't love out more than you can accept in your own heart. You just have to let love overcome all pain and fear away and overflow into others. It's the same with grace it covers all sin and shame, what a wonderful present... I was brought back to the beginning, God's love for me and Jesus' gift of life all wrapped up in beautiful love and amazing grace.
Thank you Jesus for each drop of blood that was shed by you, may not a drop be wasted. With each day, may I understand a little more of the gift of my salvation and how to live that out visibly on a daily basis. May I be forever reminded of the immense love that covers me. Jesus may I learn that you are my portion, you are all I need without exception. I praise you Jesus, thank you for the life you gave and the love you pour out so freely on me.
In your most precious and holy name I pray, Amen.
Now that does not mean its easy, I have some really hard to love folks in my circle and it stretches me thin to love them because, at times, I honestly don't want to. But, my present from God is a gentle reminder that I can not love enough in and of myself, I will always run dry and weary. My love has to come from the eternal fountain of love in me that is Jesus Christ. I am reminded that not so long ago I was a horribly hard child to love, it was my mission. Then I began to understand that maybe as with grace, you can't love out more than you can accept in your own heart. You just have to let love overcome all pain and fear away and overflow into others. It's the same with grace it covers all sin and shame, what a wonderful present... I was brought back to the beginning, God's love for me and Jesus' gift of life all wrapped up in beautiful love and amazing grace.
Thank you Jesus for each drop of blood that was shed by you, may not a drop be wasted. With each day, may I understand a little more of the gift of my salvation and how to live that out visibly on a daily basis. May I be forever reminded of the immense love that covers me. Jesus may I learn that you are my portion, you are all I need without exception. I praise you Jesus, thank you for the life you gave and the love you pour out so freely on me.
In your most precious and holy name I pray, Amen.
October 22, 2005
Sometimes I get stifled...
Sometimes I hear the words and they just flow through my mind. At times, faster than I can write them down and I never know when it might happen, in the car, in a group, in solitude or at the store? But, there are also times that I just run dry and I have had a week or so of that here lately. I know that when this happens that I am most usually, in a different place than where God has been leading me to, somewhere down the line I stepped off the journey and lost my focus. Being who I am and the personality type that I am... that is very true to my nature and easily done.
So, what do I do? I try to place my focus on God and and kingdom thoughts. I surround myself with Godly music, like-minded friends and books that say something to my heart. I pray but usually it's a bit different a waiting and praise prayer, thanking Him for the unknown to come. God is always faithful to show me, teach me and discipline me if I am willing to receive Him. Even though the words don't flow my soul is still moving and growing because I no longer want nor am I bound by fear to stay the same. My Father loves me too much to let me wallow, be overcome by bitterness or hate, he cares for me in the ways that fit me perfectly and completely. So, the point is this... Something GOOD is on it's way!
So, what do I do? I try to place my focus on God and and kingdom thoughts. I surround myself with Godly music, like-minded friends and books that say something to my heart. I pray but usually it's a bit different a waiting and praise prayer, thanking Him for the unknown to come. God is always faithful to show me, teach me and discipline me if I am willing to receive Him. Even though the words don't flow my soul is still moving and growing because I no longer want nor am I bound by fear to stay the same. My Father loves me too much to let me wallow, be overcome by bitterness or hate, he cares for me in the ways that fit me perfectly and completely. So, the point is this... Something GOOD is on it's way!
October 17, 2005
mighty God in heaven, hear my prayer
Mighty God in Heaven hear my prayer,
you are the:
Alpha and Omega,
Rock (1 Corinthians 10:4)
Lord of glory (1 Corinthians 2:8)
Our Passover (1 Corinthians 5:7)
Word of Life (1 John 1:1)
Eternal life (1 John 1:2;5:20)
Advocate (1 John 2:1)
True God (1 John 5:20)
Shepherd and Bishop of souls (1 Peter 2:25)
Chief Shepherd (1 Peter 5:4)
Mediator (1 Timothy 2:5)
Ransom (1 Timothy 2:6)
King of Kings (1 Timothy 6:15; Revelations 17:14)
Blessed and only Potentate (1 Timothy 6:15)
savior (2 Peter 2:20;3:18)
Lord of all (Acts 10:36)
Prince of life (Acts 3:15)
Just One (Acts 7:52)
Messiah (Daniel 9:25; John 1:41)
Chief Corner-stone (Ephesians 2:20; 1 Peter 2:6)
Head of the Church (Ephesians 5:23; Colossians 1:18)
I AM (Exodus 3:14; John 8:58)
Angel of the Lord (Exodus 3:2; Judges 13:15-18)
Renown (Ezekiel 34:29)
You are so much more than I can fathom, more than I can take in. Father, forgive me for how I fall short in my praise and worship of you. How you lift my soul and bring joy to my burdened heart. Thank you for believing in me and showing me that I am your child and you love me whole-ly, completely and perfectly. You are all I need, may I grow more and more each day in the knowledge of that truth.
Father may we as your people grow and accept your love so that we can give it freely to others. I pray that our (my) thoughts would turn from self thought to thoughts of others and where we can be your hands and feet and touch their lives. May we (I) hear and obey when you call us to go.
Father, I ask for more understanding and wisdom so that I can know your character more. I ask that in my life you would be seen long after I am gone, that you would be remembered not me. I lift up my face and look to you, for you are holy. God teach me to bring joy to you through my obedience to you in my daily life. When I feel ill-equipped may I remember that is not in me, it is you in me. May I have the willingness of flesh to step aside and let you shine out of me.
Father be glorified in me, that's all I want. In the most high name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen
you are the:
Alpha and Omega,
Rock (1 Corinthians 10:4)
Lord of glory (1 Corinthians 2:8)
Our Passover (1 Corinthians 5:7)
Word of Life (1 John 1:1)
Eternal life (1 John 1:2;5:20)
Advocate (1 John 2:1)
True God (1 John 5:20)
Shepherd and Bishop of souls (1 Peter 2:25)
Chief Shepherd (1 Peter 5:4)
Mediator (1 Timothy 2:5)
Ransom (1 Timothy 2:6)
King of Kings (1 Timothy 6:15; Revelations 17:14)
Blessed and only Potentate (1 Timothy 6:15)
savior (2 Peter 2:20;3:18)
Lord of all (Acts 10:36)
Prince of life (Acts 3:15)
Just One (Acts 7:52)
Messiah (Daniel 9:25; John 1:41)
Chief Corner-stone (Ephesians 2:20; 1 Peter 2:6)
Head of the Church (Ephesians 5:23; Colossians 1:18)
I AM (Exodus 3:14; John 8:58)
Angel of the Lord (Exodus 3:2; Judges 13:15-18)
Renown (Ezekiel 34:29)
You are so much more than I can fathom, more than I can take in. Father, forgive me for how I fall short in my praise and worship of you. How you lift my soul and bring joy to my burdened heart. Thank you for believing in me and showing me that I am your child and you love me whole-ly, completely and perfectly. You are all I need, may I grow more and more each day in the knowledge of that truth.
Father may we as your people grow and accept your love so that we can give it freely to others. I pray that our (my) thoughts would turn from self thought to thoughts of others and where we can be your hands and feet and touch their lives. May we (I) hear and obey when you call us to go.
Father, I ask for more understanding and wisdom so that I can know your character more. I ask that in my life you would be seen long after I am gone, that you would be remembered not me. I lift up my face and look to you, for you are holy. God teach me to bring joy to you through my obedience to you in my daily life. When I feel ill-equipped may I remember that is not in me, it is you in me. May I have the willingness of flesh to step aside and let you shine out of me.
Father be glorified in me, that's all I want. In the most high name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen
October 16, 2005
Finding freedom
There are so many different facets to freedom and today I found another. I have this blog so I can write what I feel God lays on my heart because I believe that if he wants me to hear it, then someone else could use it too. However, I am registered as hischild because I fear rejection, constructive criticism and cower at the thought of someone judging my words, so I write anonymously and tell just a few so I am not vulnerable.
The freedom I found is this... If I am seeking God and I feel He has laid something on my heart to share, then in obedience to Him I should then pass it on. In Matthew 10:27 it says "What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs". This says to me... They are not my words to be judged nor my ideas to be rejected. They are a platform on which you can stand or not, they are an opportunity to seek Him more and they are a glimpse of just who God is in us. We all have our gifts, those things that bring us joy to do and therein lies freedom. Freedom from everything except the knowledge that God loves us enough to make us unique and hand crafted by His design. He planned us specifically to accomplish His works and knows the day, time and minute that we will give in and walk along with Him. I have thought about this before but never heard God say... "You should have no fear but of Me, the rest I will handle on my own". Okay, so maybe not those exact words but I get the picture so.... Wonderfully blessed by His grace and abundant love~ Cyndi Smith
The freedom I found is this... If I am seeking God and I feel He has laid something on my heart to share, then in obedience to Him I should then pass it on. In Matthew 10:27 it says "What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs". This says to me... They are not my words to be judged nor my ideas to be rejected. They are a platform on which you can stand or not, they are an opportunity to seek Him more and they are a glimpse of just who God is in us. We all have our gifts, those things that bring us joy to do and therein lies freedom. Freedom from everything except the knowledge that God loves us enough to make us unique and hand crafted by His design. He planned us specifically to accomplish His works and knows the day, time and minute that we will give in and walk along with Him. I have thought about this before but never heard God say... "You should have no fear but of Me, the rest I will handle on my own". Okay, so maybe not those exact words but I get the picture so.... Wonderfully blessed by His grace and abundant love~ Cyndi Smith
October 14, 2005
What's in our eyes...
Living out what I believe in my heart is such a struggle for me. I believe with all my soul, that God loves me so much, that He could not stand to be separated from me for eternity. So, He provided a perfect lamb to take all of my sin and shame and bear it on the cross in my place.
While there is still so much about that statement that I have yet to fully grasp, I know it is true and I try daily to live that out through the things I do and the word I say. Lately, I have been bombarded with issues that bring out behaviors of regression in me. I mean instead of turning directly to God in a crunch, I run for the nearest unhealthy manner of coping that I can. I don't fully comprehend where that falls exactly... With the whole Living out what I believe. I am assured that this is another way for God to refine me, those hidden issues that I have not dealt with or things I have not yet identified as issues that need to be resolved.
I guess living out what you believe is not always saying the exact perfect thing or never making a bad choice... It's the faith and knowledge that God loves us and will not let us stay unchanged, if we are willing, He will use our experiences to mould us to be in His image, we can not do it in ourselves. With that said, I will still strive to live out what I believe and honor God with my daily sacrifices however, I will not let the deceiver fool me into thinking that is defined by perfection... Again, a victory of truth over the (now powerless) lie!
Thank you Jesus for thinking of me and loving me enough to accept imperfection in my body but willingness in my heart.
While there is still so much about that statement that I have yet to fully grasp, I know it is true and I try daily to live that out through the things I do and the word I say. Lately, I have been bombarded with issues that bring out behaviors of regression in me. I mean instead of turning directly to God in a crunch, I run for the nearest unhealthy manner of coping that I can. I don't fully comprehend where that falls exactly... With the whole Living out what I believe. I am assured that this is another way for God to refine me, those hidden issues that I have not dealt with or things I have not yet identified as issues that need to be resolved.
I guess living out what you believe is not always saying the exact perfect thing or never making a bad choice... It's the faith and knowledge that God loves us and will not let us stay unchanged, if we are willing, He will use our experiences to mould us to be in His image, we can not do it in ourselves. With that said, I will still strive to live out what I believe and honor God with my daily sacrifices however, I will not let the deceiver fool me into thinking that is defined by perfection... Again, a victory of truth over the (now powerless) lie!
Thank you Jesus for thinking of me and loving me enough to accept imperfection in my body but willingness in my heart.
October 11, 2005
Stained Glass
Father God, as I arise
I pray that you would open my eyes.
As I take a step this day,
be my lamp and show me the way.
I long to know more about you
and all the ways your hands soothe
I want to know your strength and love
so I can mirror what comes from above
I want to know how to praise
to humbly honor you with hands raised.
To sacrifice to you my will
and empty my heart ready for you to fill.
I want my life here and now
to live in you boldly and out loud.
I want to show all those around
the joy in you that I have found
Father Abba, teach me to love
the kind that flows only from above.
may my life be a lesson not only for me
but shared freely around for all to see.
that anything I do is not me at all
for I am that man sinned at the fall.
Let all know that look in and see
it's only by you living here in me,
that I can have the will to love at all
it comes directly form the grace given to us at the fall.
See, I know that I am set apart and given a purpose in life
and it's not to suffer in pain and to face constant daily strife.
It's to grow in Jesus, live outloud, love abundantly and not to waste this life.
So see, I know where I belong... here living out my life's song.
Until one day, it's time to go
To see everything I ever wanted to know
home I will be forever taken up
the thought of it overflows my cup.
So if you don't know this Jesus that changes it all
get on your kness and give him a call.
He is mighty and quick to save
just tell him that you have decided in Him to bathe
let go of the past and let Him lead
straight to your heart where He planted a seed.
Walk in your days with Him by yourside
forever in you will He now abide.
remember that you are only created man
but now in your life you can take a stand
Be sure to step out in faith and share
your heart and soul to others lay bare
Then, just maybe we will all know
just where our life's song will show...
In the smile of a stranger, a good deed done
are things that shine through us the life of the son.
It's exciting to see how a life grows
just in the words of these few rows
My hope in this is to encourage my sisters and brothers to live
learn to overflow from Him in love, hope and to selflessly give
Then, I think we all will see just who it is that holds the key
our eyes will be open opened and we will finally see.... what it is that we were created to be.
I pray that you would open my eyes.
As I take a step this day,
be my lamp and show me the way.
I long to know more about you
and all the ways your hands soothe
I want to know your strength and love
so I can mirror what comes from above
I want to know how to praise
to humbly honor you with hands raised.
To sacrifice to you my will
and empty my heart ready for you to fill.
I want my life here and now
to live in you boldly and out loud.
I want to show all those around
the joy in you that I have found
Father Abba, teach me to love
the kind that flows only from above.
may my life be a lesson not only for me
but shared freely around for all to see.
that anything I do is not me at all
for I am that man sinned at the fall.
Let all know that look in and see
it's only by you living here in me,
that I can have the will to love at all
it comes directly form the grace given to us at the fall.
See, I know that I am set apart and given a purpose in life
and it's not to suffer in pain and to face constant daily strife.
It's to grow in Jesus, live outloud, love abundantly and not to waste this life.
So see, I know where I belong... here living out my life's song.
Until one day, it's time to go
To see everything I ever wanted to know
home I will be forever taken up
the thought of it overflows my cup.
So if you don't know this Jesus that changes it all
get on your kness and give him a call.
He is mighty and quick to save
just tell him that you have decided in Him to bathe
let go of the past and let Him lead
straight to your heart where He planted a seed.
Walk in your days with Him by yourside
forever in you will He now abide.
remember that you are only created man
but now in your life you can take a stand
Be sure to step out in faith and share
your heart and soul to others lay bare
Then, just maybe we will all know
just where our life's song will show...
In the smile of a stranger, a good deed done
are things that shine through us the life of the son.
It's exciting to see how a life grows
just in the words of these few rows
My hope in this is to encourage my sisters and brothers to live
learn to overflow from Him in love, hope and to selflessly give
Then, I think we all will see just who it is that holds the key
our eyes will be open opened and we will finally see.... what it is that we were created to be.
October 09, 2005
Stained glass am I
Have you ever thought about stained glass? Do you appreciate the beauty when you see it or have you grown cold to it's wonder? In talking with my husband tonight, He brought up how many different facets there are in a stained glass window. It made me think about myself as a beautiful window... and I wondered... am I lit?
Well, I don't know much but I assume that stained glass is very hard to make. You have to peice it together to make it into what you want it to be. You have to have just the right pieces of glass and colors to complete your work. Then you have to fit it all together and seal it to make sure it is strong enought to withstand the life of a window.
Stained glass is beautiful but, it has to have light behind it to see and apprecitate it and at night time no one can see it bacause no one knows it is there, it appears as just another window... what a shame, to have somethiing so beautiful and useful but no one ever gets to see it.
Stained glass is a bit like people, we are useless without the light of the Son in us to shine out the beauty within. Before we have the light to shine, only God appreciates us because He is he only one that knows the beauty is there. We can be beautiful masterpieces, creeated and designed uniquely by God, or we can be "just another an unlit window"....
What do you want to be? A beautiful stained glass masterpiece or an unlit window?
Well, I don't know much but I assume that stained glass is very hard to make. You have to peice it together to make it into what you want it to be. You have to have just the right pieces of glass and colors to complete your work. Then you have to fit it all together and seal it to make sure it is strong enought to withstand the life of a window.
Stained glass is beautiful but, it has to have light behind it to see and apprecitate it and at night time no one can see it bacause no one knows it is there, it appears as just another window... what a shame, to have somethiing so beautiful and useful but no one ever gets to see it.
Stained glass is a bit like people, we are useless without the light of the Son in us to shine out the beauty within. Before we have the light to shine, only God appreciates us because He is he only one that knows the beauty is there. We can be beautiful masterpieces, creeated and designed uniquely by God, or we can be "just another an unlit window"....
What do you want to be? A beautiful stained glass masterpiece or an unlit window?
October 08, 2005
“I don’t know” is where I am…
Today it just struck me that I am fearful of so much more than I should be. As a child of God, my only fear is to be that of God and nothing else because the things of this world are not my concern.… What brought this thought on is, the ride to the hospital this morning to see my ill grandmother. She has been ill for the past 4 days and I knew that but I didn't go see her until she took a turn for the worst (FYI: no, she did not die, she is better now). As I drove and prayed I was at a loss as to how to pray for her. I actually thought that maybe it would be better if God just went ahead and took her to heaven... then I realized, who would that be better for?
I can name 5 legitimate reasons why couldn't go see her this week but, the truth is much more clear. I am fearful of illness and death. I think that for many reasons I associate all manners of departing, whether it be by death, moving, divorce or whatever, I see it as abandonment and that is my biggest hurt ever. So I am very guarded around my relationships that illness enters into. I used to think it was just my poor time-management but I know now, that it is rooted in fear and causing a stumbling block in my ability to support and serve those that are ill, in the love of Christ.
Fear has even has corrupted a most special relationship of mine with a friend because she got ill. I pulled away probably when she could have used my help and support the most, so I prayed... God, what is it in me that clings to this fear? Am I scared that if one more person passes or moves that I will be broken into tiny pieces? How do I doubt you and your ability to take care of me after everythingyou have brought me out from. How can I have one little bit, much less a mountain, of fear? And why would I rather hold on to that fear instead of bringing it to you and living free?
There are so many things that I just don’t have the answer to and coming to the realization of that is half the battle. Now it’s consciously seeking God and changing my actions in these situations that will help me handle what I can and to be still when I can’t. So, “I don’t know isn’t a horrible place… it’s a starting place.
I can name 5 legitimate reasons why couldn't go see her this week but, the truth is much more clear. I am fearful of illness and death. I think that for many reasons I associate all manners of departing, whether it be by death, moving, divorce or whatever, I see it as abandonment and that is my biggest hurt ever. So I am very guarded around my relationships that illness enters into. I used to think it was just my poor time-management but I know now, that it is rooted in fear and causing a stumbling block in my ability to support and serve those that are ill, in the love of Christ.
Fear has even has corrupted a most special relationship of mine with a friend because she got ill. I pulled away probably when she could have used my help and support the most, so I prayed... God, what is it in me that clings to this fear? Am I scared that if one more person passes or moves that I will be broken into tiny pieces? How do I doubt you and your ability to take care of me after everythingyou have brought me out from. How can I have one little bit, much less a mountain, of fear? And why would I rather hold on to that fear instead of bringing it to you and living free?
There are so many things that I just don’t have the answer to and coming to the realization of that is half the battle. Now it’s consciously seeking God and changing my actions in these situations that will help me handle what I can and to be still when I can’t. So, “I don’t know isn’t a horrible place… it’s a starting place.
October 06, 2005
Waking up thankful...
Today as I woke I didn't think about Jesus or Beauty. I was focused in on how much I did not want to get out of bed and how much longer I could stay in bed without effecting others in my family, then... I had a thought rush over me and I was smiling. I often think of the many reason that I do not deserve to be blessed or receive God's grace but today I just felt loved and cared for. Today is not a special day, nothing out of the ordinary happening but... I am prepared for this day because I believe my heavenly Father hugged me. I am jus so thankful for a Father that loves me and knows everything about me and stills longs to hug me through my day.
Dear Father God, Thank you so much for your unquenched desire to be close to me. I pray that as I focus my eyes on you today that my life will mirror what I believe in my heart. Today may my steps be bold, my thoughts be clear and you be my first priority in every step I take, word I speak and decision I make. Father, I do want to walk beside you in your work I want to know you more, lead me and teach me what all that takes from me. May today be a day that I truly seek you and your will.
As a wife Father, I ask that you just place gentle reminders in my path of the wonderful blessing that I have in my husband. May I desire to serve him in the ways that you want me to Lord and may I bow my will to him and learn true Godly submission. I praise you Lord for the loving, patient, whole-ly completing Father that you are.
I pray that as parents, we would be focused on you, strong in each other and able to lead our children in your ways. Thank you for the precious blessing of each of their individual gifts and characters, teach us and provide clarity in our discipline of them. I desire for them to be and fulfill your plans for them and to be the best children of God that you created them to be. Help us to accomplish your will in them and not ours.
Father God, you are wonderful, majestic and unparalleled in might, you are love, hope, acceptance and freedom help you children to grasp hold of the life you have chosen for us and live in the victory of our salvation.
I love you and praise you in the most high name of Jesus Christ, I do pray to you Amen
Dear Father God, Thank you so much for your unquenched desire to be close to me. I pray that as I focus my eyes on you today that my life will mirror what I believe in my heart. Today may my steps be bold, my thoughts be clear and you be my first priority in every step I take, word I speak and decision I make. Father, I do want to walk beside you in your work I want to know you more, lead me and teach me what all that takes from me. May today be a day that I truly seek you and your will.
As a wife Father, I ask that you just place gentle reminders in my path of the wonderful blessing that I have in my husband. May I desire to serve him in the ways that you want me to Lord and may I bow my will to him and learn true Godly submission. I praise you Lord for the loving, patient, whole-ly completing Father that you are.
I pray that as parents, we would be focused on you, strong in each other and able to lead our children in your ways. Thank you for the precious blessing of each of their individual gifts and characters, teach us and provide clarity in our discipline of them. I desire for them to be and fulfill your plans for them and to be the best children of God that you created them to be. Help us to accomplish your will in them and not ours.
Father God, you are wonderful, majestic and unparalleled in might, you are love, hope, acceptance and freedom help you children to grasp hold of the life you have chosen for us and live in the victory of our salvation.
I love you and praise you in the most high name of Jesus Christ, I do pray to you Amen
October 04, 2005
Being content...
You know, I just get so confused about cherishing what I have verses what I want. God has undoubtedly blessed me beyond what I am deserving of (that's a given). However, can you fully appreciate and be content with what you have if you still want something more? This argument could go for just about anything but for me, at this time, it's about a house. I remember when we first moved into this home, we would just lay in bed talking about how cool and unbelievable it was that we actually owned this house. I still feel that way to an extent but I want more room and I think we could do it but... We don't NEED it. So, what is that? Well, in studying Timothy chapter 6 I find that there is still a fine line but, it is pretty clear. Be obedient to God's call, He will provide all things for my enjoyment and He will be faithful to me (a very BAD paraphrase). Anyway what I got was this... I need to think less on more and more on God, He will provide all things and the calling to them. So I wait or learn to wait for his coming call.
October 03, 2005
Why a blog...
I love to talk so writing should come naturally right?... So I chose a blog to come out in. I want to try my hand and stretch a little by putting my thoughts out there for whoever wants to see and let (what I hope is) nature take place.
A little about me... well, first this isn't a sex, drug or fetish thing so if that is what cranks your boat skip this and move on.
I focus most of my writing on prayers and encouragement OR maybe something that has struck me as profound.
So, me... I am in my late thirties, married to a wonderful husband for almost 16 years and we have three children together. I have spent the last 15 years pouring into my kids and now little by little I am going to pour back into my self. Writing just makes me feel good so now, I am going to take time to do it.
Just visiting a few web sites today made me think: why do we (I) let fear into our possible success? Why don't more of us just put ourselves out there and see what happens? For me, it's because I am so scared that God might bless me more and I will lose my focus and perspective... I guess at times I feel like I am barley holding on to what I have and if anything shakes me up then I will lose it all. Isn't that crazy? I can see it but, that doesn't change my feelings or fear. Just something in my head crying out for prayer...
If in reading this you would like me to pray for you, you need to know that I pray to my Father God in Heaven in the name of Jesus Christ because Jesus died for me (and you too). If you do not agree with me that is OK, just don't bother posting a nasty message because I am firmly founded in my faith. You can be too, I don't want to offend anyone. I'm just here to see what happens.
Anyway, I would love to pray for you I will do so mostly at night but will make a commitment to do so if asked.
That makes day 1, have a blessed night!
A little about me... well, first this isn't a sex, drug or fetish thing so if that is what cranks your boat skip this and move on.
I focus most of my writing on prayers and encouragement OR maybe something that has struck me as profound.
So, me... I am in my late thirties, married to a wonderful husband for almost 16 years and we have three children together. I have spent the last 15 years pouring into my kids and now little by little I am going to pour back into my self. Writing just makes me feel good so now, I am going to take time to do it.
Just visiting a few web sites today made me think: why do we (I) let fear into our possible success? Why don't more of us just put ourselves out there and see what happens? For me, it's because I am so scared that God might bless me more and I will lose my focus and perspective... I guess at times I feel like I am barley holding on to what I have and if anything shakes me up then I will lose it all. Isn't that crazy? I can see it but, that doesn't change my feelings or fear. Just something in my head crying out for prayer...
If in reading this you would like me to pray for you, you need to know that I pray to my Father God in Heaven in the name of Jesus Christ because Jesus died for me (and you too). If you do not agree with me that is OK, just don't bother posting a nasty message because I am firmly founded in my faith. You can be too, I don't want to offend anyone. I'm just here to see what happens.
Anyway, I would love to pray for you I will do so mostly at night but will make a commitment to do so if asked.
That makes day 1, have a blessed night!
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