Although my birthday has come and gone God prepared my heart for the blessings that He had for me personally weeks before. As we know, I had a bit of freedom released just before that day, in which, I was so wonderfully taught that obedience comes on all different levels. I had a dear friend who reminded me that age is not a number but a new opportunity and season of growth. The last week before I turned 37, God planned for me to see several areas in which I am abundantly blessed and others that need my attention. He prepared me and made sure that I felt loved and at peace on this birthday. I did, this is the first birthday that was about celebrating God's creation of me and what that means and how far that I have evolved by knowing Him. I was doing a mental inventory of my friends and loved ones, comparing what I am now as a friend, wife, mother, sister and daughter as to what I want to be. It was just so nice to know that I am loved by my loved ones and that it can only get better as we grow.
Now that does not mean its easy, I have some really hard to love folks in my circle and it stretches me thin to love them because, at times, I honestly don't want to. But, my present from God is a gentle reminder that I can not love enough in and of myself, I will always run dry and weary. My love has to come from the eternal fountain of love in me that is Jesus Christ. I am reminded that not so long ago I was a horribly hard child to love, it was my mission. Then I began to understand that maybe as with grace, you can't love out more than you can accept in your own heart. You just have to let love overcome all pain and fear away and overflow into others. It's the same with grace it covers all sin and shame, what a wonderful present... I was brought back to the beginning, God's love for me and Jesus' gift of life all wrapped up in beautiful love and amazing grace.
Thank you Jesus for each drop of blood that was shed by you, may not a drop be wasted. With each day, may I understand a little more of the gift of my salvation and how to live that out visibly on a daily basis. May I be forever reminded of the immense love that covers me. Jesus may I learn that you are my portion, you are all I need without exception. I praise you Jesus, thank you for the life you gave and the love you pour out so freely on me.
In your most precious and holy name I pray, Amen.
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ReplyDeletei'm a christian man from denmark, europe, who has just read some of your blogger. God loves you, but that you know. Your words have spoken to me, and ministed greatly. you keep on doing this, okey? I've sended you some prayer, i'm proud to have a "sister" like you.