What would have been if I had not chosen life?
I remember so clearly it all cuts through like a knife.

I was so lonely and empty nothing was there
I had been hurt too much to continue to care.
I went about my days like a leaf in the wind
just waiting around for it all to finally come to an end.

I had managed to fake a picture that sold
but on the inside all I felt was bitter and cold.
I set my mind on returning the pain
I tried everything I thought might help but it was all in vain.

Then that night in the crossroads of my life
I heard a voice call to me that there was an end to my strife.
for some reason this voice cut straight through
and to choose life is what I knew I had to do.

you see, I knew I was dying and it would not be long
but within that voice, was the sound of my lifesong.
right then I was given a hope that there was more
It rocked my foundation and shook my core.

I received that night a gift unparalleled in worth
what I heard next was the sound of my soul's rebirth.
In that moment so small, everything changed in me
I caught a glimpse of what it was that I could be.

I was no longer the "slow" one or the "fast" one nor was I the pretty one or the empty one
Now I belonged to the only one, the present one and the unconditionally loving one.
I had hope that the pain would end and love really would conquer all
and I understood that I would have to take down the wall.

I still have a hard time letting my guard down
but now I know that to it I am no longer bound.
Thanks to my king, my Father above
I can do all things with Christ's all encompassing love.